two headlights shine through the sleepless night
20. Sydney, Australia.
I watch too much tv and lack any form of a life. hey.
Carmen: I just… I want…
Al: It’s all right. You don’t…you don’t have to apologize, sweetheart. You were upset. I know.
Carmen: No, Dad, you don’t know. That’s just it, you’ve never known…because I’ve never been able to tell you.
Al: Tell me what?
Carmen: That I’m angry with you, Dad. This entire thing. About you, and Lydia and the kids…
Al: It’s my fault. I should have told you about them before, and I’m sorry.
Carmen: Yeah, you should’ve warned me, but it’s more than that. It’s the fact that you’ve found yourself this new family…and I feel like some outsider who doesn’t even belong to you anymore. It’s like you traded me and Mom in for something that you thought was better…and I wanna know why.
Are you ashamed of me? Are you embarrassed?
Just tell me, Dad, what did I do wrong?
Why did you leave? Why did you have to go? And then tell me that we were gonna be closer? But that never happened.
Dad, why does Paul visit his alcoholic dad every month…but you only visit me twice a year? And I know… You just seem so happy
about being Paul and Krista’s dad…but you never even had
the time to be mine.